Sunday, May 27, 2007

Crunch Time

I know it's been a while since my last post. It's now crunch time - my surgery is scheduled for the morning of June 7th and I have been extremely busy getting everything at home and at work ready for my time off. I'm planning on telling the kids tomorrow - and am anxious to see how they react to the news. I've never been away from the office for 7 business days straight (except for maternity leave) so that will be a first. I had "perfect attendance" up to this point and I hate to break the streak but oh well.

We've been having beautiful weather here every day and I'm doing my best to enjoy every second of it. One of my good friends recently sent me an email for mother's day that had a short story by Anne Quinlan about being a mother. Her kids are now evidently grown and she is looking back with reflection and some regret and says that she wishes she had enjoyed the doing of things more and the getting done of things less. I have been trying to live this attitude and felt her story depicted my thoughts and feelings exactly. I have felt for a while now like there is a large clock ticking which signifies the time I have left with the kids where I will see them everyday before they go off to college. While I want them to grow up and be happy and independent adults, I really want to savor those last years where you see them everyday. My thyroid issue has perhaps made the clock tick louder. I am looking very forward to summer and the vacation days I will take to spend time with the kids. I'm sure the other moms think I'm crazy but I'm enjoying (most of the time) running the kids everywhere, selling concessions together and working in the yard with each other. I find myself making more time for playing "HORSE", "PIG" or "PIGTAIL" in basketball as my youngest likes to play the later to draw the game out longer, or playing golf in our yard. As I'm typing this the wind chime is chiming, the birds are chirping and the water fountain on the back patio is making the soothing bubbling sound I love and I am thankful to be able to enjoy this gorgeous day.

4 comments:

Glenda said...

Sounds like a nice, relaxing day. Tell me about your kids--how old, etc.

I'm 51 years old and have an 8 year old daughter. My one and only. Yes, I started very late in life and often people think I'm her grandma!! For the most part it doesn't bother me--I find it humorous. I have an ex-husband.
I must say for my surgery last summer he certainly stepped up to the plate and did well by our daughter and me. It was very much appreciated not to have to worry about her.

I should point out that I'm a young 51 LOL. Even if I don't want to be, my daughter keeps me that way!

Elle said...

Our kids range in age from pre-teen to teen. I am curious how long you had to stay in the hospital and how difficult you found the surgery. You're the first and only person I've been able to correspond with that has had the surgery. Plus if you have any pointers, like don't whatever or do this or that which you found helpful I would love to have those tips. Thanks much and take care -

Nikki said...
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Nikki said...

WOW! I didn't realize your surgery is scheduled for this week. My prayers are with you, but I am not worried. Everything will be fine.

I really enjoyed this post. You are right, so often we spend so much time checking things off our to-do list that we don't have time to just do. I understand about the clock ticking, as mine is clicking slightly differently.

My husband and I are just now trying to have children together. I am 35 and at times worry if I waited too long and how much time I will have to spend with them.

Keep sharing your journey. It is inspirational.